My hands are shaking, time was never on our side, and there's no such thing as a beautiful goodbye.

so interesting weekend so farr.

besides the whole you know what thing, the campout was so much fun.

i like really bonded with everyone, especially everyone besides you and shan, duh. 

mr. you know who, hasn't called my parents yet. 

i just can't wait for that? 

but i actually think everything is going to be okay.

we have a day off tomorrow, so we can just relaxxxx. im definitely going to sleep late. 

if anything, this has kind of made me realize, that i never want to lose you. 

it sounds kind of weird i guess, but now that we can't talk/hangout with him, it's made me think and like it's not going to be so bad i guess since we never even talk anyway, but i can't even imagine not talking to you, and not hanging out with you, or shannon, or both of you. it would make me so depressed. i couldn't handle that. 

and like looking back and seeing that in those first really scary moments, we were there for each other, you know? i was holding your hand and michele's hand and then we just prayed together, and like that really formed a bondd. those are the kinds of people who don't leave, and i can only hope that you won't leave, and that shan won't leave. and i know you won't. 

whichh is the best feeling ever, bc i can trust you and tell you everything. 

i love you 

and everything with this is going to turn out okay. 

:D