well you showed me how it feels, to feel the sky within my reach.

so lately i've just been feeling really good.

honestly its auditioning. and singing and acting. i love it. every minute of it.

yeah it makes me nervous sometimes i feel like im going to collapse under it all, but honestly

nothing makes me feel more alive.

its funny, because it can be like freezing cold outside and i can have two tests the next day and tons of homework i haven't done, but being with you and singing it just takes it all away. it breathes into me. its like i cant breathe without those moments and without those kinds of things. they keep me going.

i think it goes back to when i did the american idol in disney. i keep thinking about that. because when i sang and after the last note, as the music faded and people started to cheer

i felt infinite, unstoppable, beautiful, worthy, accomplished, happy.

so happy.

those are the moments i live for.

those are the kind of moments that forever define the other moments you have, is the highest standard to which you compare every other feeling.

i want to feel like that again and for the first time in a while,

i feel like i'm going to, and it's through this and with you and it makes me so excited.

andd tomorrow is the last day before break :D

so i have borders days and christmas and family and YOU and friends to look forward to.

there is so much to look forward to thats coming up for us maggie. i'm so excited!

and im so happy we're doing this together =]

andd i am also very happy that you're happy.

i'm there for you always, love. =]