well now it's etched in stone, i can't survive alone, you have the missing piece.

that picture reminds me of us. or of me and shan. not like it actually resembles us physically but like the whole best friend hugging thing. yeahh :] 

so basically thursday night was amazingg. hanging out with you and shan is like amazingly amazing. hottub chats oh babbyy! :p haha i had so much fun with you guys plus i basically can tell you both anything, and i do, so it was great to like get stuff off my chest and whatnott. 

and hanging out last night was great too.. especially for you :p

i am el glad things seem to be working out, im sure they will continue to work outt!

and we are most definitely hanging out asap! :D

i feel happy. like for once, i'm not feeling like oh i need a boyfriend right now!! 

which is good, i mean tomorrow i'll probably want one, but i will savor this feeling while it lasts :p

i think that's what i have to do, and what we always have to do, is just stay in those moments, keep them alive, draw them out because honestly you never know when something is going to change everything, you know? 

and uhmm. im waiting for you. get online. :D love you. 

sorry, you don't define me.

i find that photo like, amazing. haha if i was a celebrity i would completely do that. wear fur, and flip off all the PETA people. 

i've been having issues lately like finding who i am. 

because i don't really know? and when everyone tells me i've changed or whatever i'm just like but i dont know how i was!! haha.

so if you've read this blog, or know me at all, which maggie you do obviouslyy, 

i'm obsessed with fame. :p

not only that but like finding myself in other people like i obsess about people and then i can't even remember who i am, i fade away into images of the other person, and it's really weird. 

lately i've been trying to be my own person, say what i mean and mean what i say.

and not gossip of course. haha. and i love that quote, because yeah i get really jealous, not only of the famouss but like of you. and sar. and shan. haha and i just gotta be confident in me you know? i must tryyy.

and i'm going to definitely try harder now, and try to kind of pave my way but i want you to be helping me out of course! you always do! haha. 

so basically i kinda want to adopt the mindset of that girl in the photo. she's beautiful and she knows it, she does what she wants, she doesn't care what they say. she stands up for what she likes and believes in. i've always wanted that kind of strength.

so noww its my turn to have it. :D 

L-O-V-E's just another word i never learned to pronounce.

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blah.

here's how i feel right now. BLEHHHHH! 

hahahah remember thatt? <3

but seriously this is how i feel right now :

~ angry that the dc boys are :

~annoying

~disinterested

~unattractive

~confused. just confused. haha

~ i want to like someone but i dont really... so basically that quote and picture are wishful thinking.

i just feel weird. 

and i also feel like our group is falling apart. and its really upsetting.

matt might not be coming to dc next year. dave is being weird. sarah's always busy. 

i can't imagine next year without you guys. i really can't. i don't want to think about it. 

plus like that quote said,  i dont even have to like anyone to still be worried all the time about what the guys think about me. it's so annoying. and frustrating, and stupid. 

what do they think? what do you think ? 

tell me tell me something i don't know.

i stole your survey :P

you must answer!!

and i changed some of them. just to be original :P

love youu.

1. Who's the weirdest person you've ever liked? (even it was only for a day or something like tht)

2. What's your least favorite color?

3. What frustrates/annoys you the most about me?

4. What song, do you feel like, describes your life.

5. If you could tell the person you liked what you truly felt about them...what would you say?

6. If you could have any boy in the grade who would it be? why?

7. If you had to be any girl in our grade (besides youself) who would you be? why?

8. What is your favorite thing in the world to do?

9. Name one thing that you truly love about yourself.

10. What do you think is your best color, the one that you look best in?

11. What do you truly hate? 

12. Would you describe yourself as honest?

13. Whats a guilty pleasure of yours?

14. Whats the first thing you look at when you meet a new person?

15. What was your first impression of me?

16. Do you think my parents like you?

17. If you could have one thing that I do, what would it be. clothes, personality traits, and looks count. haha

18. What food, if any, do you crave like crazy right now?

19. what do you think my next step in life should be? 

20. Whats the thing that you believe strongest in?