out one day, walking one day, out one day with you hallelujah.

last night was really fun. 

apples to apples. and shes the man. 

and laughing. at each other. with each other. 

i had a greatt timee.

so today was pretty good i guess. 

i can't stop thinking about summer. 

i'm really excited. but im also really nervous. 

like what if things don't turn out the way i want them to. 

what if i don't have fun. what if something bad happens, or i fail like i do now? haha. 

i don't really know whats going to happen this summer. and that scares me. 

i love being in control. i need the whole plan, like all the time, and to not have a plan like freaks me out.

but basically what i know is that. 

you and me, maggie. together. this summer. 

as much as possible. because that's the way it was supposed to be. the way it should be. 

the way it is. 

a lot of my life is kind of spinning, waiting, wishing 

but i have constants. 

you. shannon. sarah. and last night, like when it was you, me, shan, sar, and howell and we were just like having that talk on the couch, i was just like, wow. these are the people. the people in my life who don't leave. some of the only ones who haven't. 

and i love that. and i feel really lucky to have that. 

and that's what makes me not freak out too much about the summer. 

because if it's with you 

it's gonna be amazing. 

i can't wait.