freedom.

this weekend was unbelievably amazing.

on friday night they did a skit, and at the end, a girl had a dance with a guy who was representing the devil and evil and such.

and i thought it was amazing, because he would hold her hand and pick her up and then smash her to the ground and she always crawled back to him.

and i could see myself in her.

and then the second night, with the second skit where the person was being beaten down (literally) by demons and someone representing Christ was screaming at him to get up, to keep fighting. and after that we all started to pray and we were shaking and crying and the youth pastor is screaming GET UP! KEEP FIGHTING! don't let go.

it was so intense you know? me and tara were just crying and holding each other and it was just letting go, getting rid of everything in our lives that was holding us back from being completely real and completely us and one with God.

and then we sang the freedom anthem.

which was just singing like "ill sing in your freedom, dance in your freedom, live in your freedom" and then the word "freedom" over and over again. and everyone was crying, standing or kneeling with their hands in the air. and then there was this one part that said:

"i'm not a failure.

i'm victorious.

i'm not a disappointment

i'm a warrior."

and then we all screamed, literally screamed, "i'm not a failure."

and it all rang so true and was so amazing. it changed my life.

God wrecked us and completely rebuilt us.

i'm so incredibly blessed that i was able to be at the retreat.

i have a feeling none of us will be the same ever again. we already are different.

it's just awesome.

i feel so happy.

i love it!