"I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anybody. Some things don't work out, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there."
~ this lullaby, sarah dessen.
last night was great.
and it wasn't great because like it was amazing with me and a guy or anything. for once, it wasn't a guy.
it was just everything, you know? being with friends. amazing amazing friends.
just living in the moment, with you mag, laying on your trampoline with everyone in a tangled up group of legs and god, i don't think i've ever laughed as hard as i did last night.
and at one point, when everyone was all silent, it wasn't really awkward. and i just like looked up and it was beautiful. the sky. and there were stars, but not a ton, just a few just like sprinkled across the sky.
and the stars were you guys. all of you, there, and here.
and i like had a moment where i realized how much my life had changed, and how much i currently love it. how much i love being with you, with everyone.
how alive i feel.
if youuu remember i had some issues with that in the first half of the year, haha. i was dead but breathing so to speak.
but like now i can laugh. and be crazy and weird and stupid. and yeah i have my insecure moments i had some last night but its okay because in the end it all works out, right?
i really hope so because i don't want to lose this. at this point, it's right. i just gotta keep it that way.
kissesss. anj
1 comment:
so you said you were trying to be profound. hey guess what ? you are.
this was amazing and exactly how i felt, the trampoline was so chill and you're so right, beautiful and amazing and in the moment. I just felt so close to everyone :D
i love being with u guys.
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