it's your life, whacha gonna do? the world is watching you.

it was such a beautiful day today ! 

my prayers were answered. no rain, no field hockey. 

and it was amazing haha once i get on the bus i go to the transfer station or whatever where i get on a different bus. but that one never showed up? haha. 

so basically i ran away from the station, walked for a little while till there was a school that i knew my mom would be able to get to, called her, and threw myself down on the grass and listened to my ipod, and i was singing along really loud and laying in the sun and it was great.

it was just one of those really peaceful moments where you can breathe, and you see the cars going by and stuff and you're like just let go. like that graphic says. 

i sometimes can be really controlling. and i like, micromanage my life. 

i plan every little detail, every little word i'm going to say, to make sure things go perfectly.

but i've come to realize this year that the most perfect moments are unplanned.

they happen quickly, quietly, you have to slow down and listen to them whispering to you, and realize that something has just happened that you're never going to forget.

those are the moments that we live for, you know? the ones where when you have the time to just lay in the sun you thread them together, and see how they've changed you. brought people into your life. taken them out. opened a door. closed one. 

it's really magical. and i'm really lucky to have those memories. :]