i want to break free, i want to make it closer to your eyes, get your attention....

...before you pass me by. i love that song. 

so this week is banquet crazyness week. 

im dreading it, haha. we had to do table sign-ups for today and it was insane trying to get everyone together for a table. we only have like 5 people in mine so far. haha. 

and i'm upset about not having a date. i mean come on i've been upset about it since the beginning. but today i realized all the little things. 

everyone was talking about matching the ties to the dresses. getting the flowers and bouteeniers. (is that how you spell it? haha). getting rides. getting ready, taking pictures, etc. 

i miss those little things. i want them. 

almost more than an actual date. although they come with a date. 

i hate being left out, more than anything. 

which is interesting. because at my church girls bible study tonight we talked about that. being on the inside and leaving people out and such. and it really sucks being the odd one out. 

i know their are other single girls. but it feels like im the only one. 

i hate being alone. 

kisses. anja