the olsens. they are so beautiful. but more than that. their skinny. its everywhere. hollywood. which wouldnt be so bad if i wasnt totally obsessed with the rich and famous and spent literally every waking moment of my life wanting what they have.
i've never been the skinny girl. its so hard to have such skinny friends. and im not blaming anyone or trying to put anyone down at all!!
i honestly like the way i look. most of the time. i like my face and everything.
but i hate the weight. i hate it. and the worst part is i cant make it go away. i'm not going to become anorexic or bulimic or anything. i honestly could never do that. but i hate feeling like the odd one out for it? and even my friends who think their fat are soooo not.
probably its one of the biggest things i worry about. and it all goes back to what maggie said about being a perfectionist and everything. i want to be everything and i honestly feel like if i was like 100 pounds my life would be SO much different.
kisses. anja
1 comment:
anja.
i think everyone feels that way sometimes. Even if your fine you always feel like u have to lose more weight or whatever. And then even when you do lose weight, you move on to the next thing you need to perfect about yourself...like you know what i mean? Like for me sometimes I feel like well when I get my braces off it'll be so much better and things will be perfect but I know that i'll just move on to the next thing so it's something you just need to conquer!
Loveee u <3
maggs
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