Friday, January 23, 2009

and i won't go back, cause if i do i won't make it.

i absolutely adore that picture. it kind of makes me want to cry or laugh. depends on my mood.
so exams are OVER! yessss. it actually wasn't a horrible week. 
and i had funnn with friends today. the past couple weeks have been amazing. 
like for once i finally feel like i'm a part of something i guess. 
like for the past 3 weekends i've done something every day!! haha. 
and everyone is so fun and chill even though some guys are strangee :PP
i just dont want to screw it up ! haha. 
in the past like month i've gotten so much better with being positive and having hope. 
that's part of why i love that graphic. is because just when you think there's nothing left, nothing good can or will happen, hope is right there, coming. it's almost there. 
you just have to wait for it and it's worth it because it will change everything about your life.
like look at me. two months ago i cried like every day. and i could barely make it through school and i worried all the time and i couldn't talk to anyone and i just wanted to fall into a deep deep sleep where i couldn't get hurt for a while. 
and i dont really know what happened to bring me to this point but i thank God every night that it happened, because i've been so happy and free. 
i haven't been worrying about friends or guys because for once it's been fine. 
and friends have been great i want this to keep up! :D 

1 comment:

maggs said...

wow like i said on facebook, i really love this, and it captures how im feeling too. like i really want this to last, i love all you guys. and were all so chill together its awesome :) i dont want it to end either :)) and i feel really blessed too, it's like you said just a little while ago, i was a total mess, and hanging out with weirdos haha, but now everything is so much better! :p haha and i liked ur graphic :) bittersweet. bitter because of MIRRORS! hhaa but sweet because its amazing and has a great message.!!