only the good die young.

I remember the day he died.
my mom was talking to her friend on the phone and then she was crying and was like anja get the laptop, people.com, now.
so i went on there and it was the whole page, breaking news, heath ledger found dead.
and i started crying. like he was my favorite actor for real i remember being like 10 and having a hugee crush on him!
and then hayley called and was like omg omg omg heath died. he died anja he died! and i was like i know.
and the next day i came into school and linda who also loved him, was like sitting in the commons sobbing. and i was like omg linda!! and shes like you know? and i was like yeah. and we were like crying.
and for like a week i couldnt leave the house. i was so depressed.
and for like literally 6 months afterwards i couldnt go on any celebrity news things, or watch movies. i was so pathetic. i was so depressed.
i think because it was literally the first time someone died that i 'knew'. or was close to or whatever idk it made me really scared especially because he was so young. i didnt do anything forever because i was like im going to die young. live fast die pretty, basically.
now i can watch his movies. 10 things i hate about you is fantastic.
and the dark knight? no words. i cried watching it. and his oscar nomination is sooo deserved. he'd better win.
so this is kind of pathetic of me i guess. i didnt know him. but i wish i had.
<3