and i, i will remember you, and all of the things that we've gone through.

"I am the mother of the most tender-hearted, high-spirited, beautiful little girl who is the spitting image of her father, all that I can cling to is his presence inside her that reveals itself every day. His family and I watch Matilda as she whispers to trees, hugs animals, and takes steps two at a time, and we know that he is with us still.”

~ Michelle Williams 

he won the Screen Actors Guild Award. so he's gonna win the oscar. im so happy. like for real. little matilda ledger is such a cutie pie. she looks so much like her dad, it's scary. 

i love my dad. he's probably one of my favorite people in the entire world. he's probably the family member that i'm closest to. like silly things we do are awesome. we watch soap operas together. we watch tv late at night when everyone else is asleep. we have poking wars. we make weird noises and talk about stupid things. but its just fun. 

i can't imagine not knowing my dad. heath's daughter technically knew him. but she was only 3 or 4 when he died last year. how does she really know him? what will she remember? what will she forget? 

having a golden globe, a sag award, and an oscar is no replacement for your father. but i think when she's older, it'll bring a lot of hope. her father accomplished something that millions of people will never accomplish. lived a life that although was brought to an end too quickly, was successful and beautiful in a lot of ways. not to mention that she has endless numbers of photos and video of her daddy that she can see all the time. not as good, but it'll feel a little bit better.

so thats basically why i hope he wins the oscar. and why im so happy he's won everything else. because not only did he, does he, deserve it but his family does too. i feel their pain. and i think this could make it a little more bearable. <33